Hope For The Best

It is been a while I do not write in my blog. Last time I said I was having pain in my lymph nodes. It was mumps actually. My colleague infected me. But, I have recovered from mumps, Alhamdulillah. It took about two weeks for recovery. It was a total bed rest. But the other thing comes up. I start to hear a ringing sound in my left ear since last Saturday. It is not loud, but quite annoying. I have done some searches, and the name of this ear problem is tinnitus. It is quite depressing actually when you have this problem. When I am on my bed and the situation seems so quiet, I can hear this ringing sound in my ears very clearly. Even if I try to cover my ear with ear protector, it just does not work. I am still afraid to see the doctor. I am just afraid that I will be gobsmacked with the medical bill. Medical cost in Jakarta is quite expensive.I do have an insurance, but it only covers for hospitalization service. So, for outpatient care, I have to bear it on my own. That is why I am still thinking twice. I do not have any idea why this tinnitus occurs. It may be because of the infection inside my left ear, or may be because of medication I took for mumps. Some medicines, like antiviral medicines can cause tinnitus also. However, it is only my guess. The thing I worry is that there is no cure for tinnitus. I am scared if I have to live my whole life with it. There are some therapies indeed, but it only reduces the intensity of tinnitus. Nothing like a medicine which can cure it. Right now, I just hope for the best. I think I am going to see a doctor this Saturday, and I hope the doctor will say okay, so I can feel relieve. In addition, I am also up to apply a scholarship in Korea. I need just one single document before I can apply. The TOEFL certificate. I hope that my TOEFL score is great. And hopefully I can apply for the scholarship and get shortlisted. Allah knows what is best for me. Sometimes it upsets me when I need to do many things but my body just feels weak. But may be it is a sign from Allah that I do not have to be hurry in everything. Just slow down and relax. My pain will be gone and everything I do will just run smoothly. May Allah blesses me. Amin.

Live High, Live Mighty, Live Righteously

I try to picture a girl
Through a looking glass
See her as a carbon atom
See her eyes and stare back at them
See that girl
As her own new world
Though a home is on the surface, she is still a universe

Glory God, oh God is peeking through the blinds
Are we all here standing naked
Taking guesses at the actual date and time
Oh my, justifying reasons why
Is an absolutely insane resolution to live by

Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously
Takin it easy
Live high, live mighty
Live righteously

Try to picture the man
To always have an open hand
See him as a giving tree
See him as matter
Matter fact he's not a beast
No not the devil either
Always a good deed doer
And it's laughter that we're makin after all

The call of the wild is still an ordination why
And the order of the permeates
All our politics are too late
Oh my, the congregation in my mind
Is this assembly singing gratitude
Practicing their loving for you

Just take it easy
And celebrate the malleable reality
Nothing is ever as it seems
This life is but a dream

I always consider Jason Mraz not as a singer only but an inspiration. From his songs, I can see he has a great concern toward humanity. It appears in his song, such as Love for A Child, Live High, Details in The Fabric, etc. Live High is one song I'd like to see the whole content now and try to see the deep meaning inside it. 

Jason tries to picture a life from a man and a woman which people see they have weaknesses. On the first line he sees a woman as a carbon atom. Carbon is the most vital element for living beings, because all living organisms are constructed from compounds of carbon. It appears first in atom (which is the smallest elemen) to form a molecule and then finally build the compunds which is truly beneficial for life for example forminh water, oxygen, and other essential things for life. What he intends to say to this blind girl is that, though this girl is like living in her new world, in the darkness of her world, however she is also one most essential part in life. The second comparison is on how he pictures a man. An ugly man, if people may say. But he is an open hand person who always be helpful and kind. He is the real good deed doer.All human are the same, despite their weaknesses. We must find something valuable from her. Though a home is on the surface, she is still a universe, though she seems to have nothing in her life, she owns everything in her life. Jason would like you to give more emphaty to those having weaknesses.

God does not choose someone from the weaknesses of someone. God chooses someone from what kindess and good deed that he/she has done. We're coming out in this world nakedly, without no sin. And we only have to wait the actual date and time when we have to die.Though it seems such a hard reason to believe that someday they're gonna die. They will leave this world and everything and some people still think that they will leave forever, we should find a justifiable argument for that, that. So why not starting the good things from now on? 

Live high means growing through every experience, taking each encounter with each being you cross paths with as intention, understand that there are no coincidences, every single action has an equivocal reaction wether upon initialty, or somewhere down your twisting passage of time may it rise back with some realization ( I am taking this from the internet and I think this is the best argument). Living with intention, with understanding. So we're able to achieve what we want in our life and also becoming more tolerant toward people surrounds us. Live mighty is to live by having or showing great power, skill, strength, or force. Live righteously means arising life from an outraged sense of justice or morality. That's the reason for living. To be passionate but do not forget others.

Jason also tries to give the criticism on the government. How they are still living in the wild world, when the one who is strong is the winner. They neglect the interest of people. The policy are too late to save people sometimes because they're arguing something for their own interest, not people's. He imagines that the assembly or parliament, would be more likely a worship place to God. When people intends to struggle for other people's interest. And it will be grateful for those people in the parliament to work for God through the people. 

In the end, we ask us to enjoy the reality which is able to adjust to changing circumstances or adaptable. Sometimes something we really want to picture in our real life can't just turn out to be what it is. Therefore, we oftenly think that it is a dream rather than a reality. But let's just take it easy :)

Before Sunrise and Sunset

When you first meet someone, what captured your attention first? His/her good look? His/her eyes? His or her smile? Or else. If you have watched Before Sunrise and Before Sunset, you’ll answer differently. These movies are about two strangers, bump into each other, drown into great talks, and feel that they complete each other. Let me give you the details first. The first movie is Before Sunrise. Jesse is an American who is having a vacation in Europe. She meets Celine on the train heading to Vienna. They begin the conversation. Celine is a French and a student. She is on her way back to French. As Jesse will leave Europe the next day, she asks Celine if she could walk him in Vienna till tomorrow. Celine agrees and both are staying at Vienna for a night. The movie are all about the conversations of those two people. Nothing else. But you won't get bored. Because the talk is very rich. They talk about many things. About politics, social, and about theirselves. We then know that Jesse is a broken home boy and is not close to his family. Meanwhile Celine is a young ambitious student, who is quite cynical with society and government, and love. They spend the night talking and talking, get to know each other better, and finally they make love at the park. On the next day, they promise to see each other again in the next 6 months in Vienna. The sequel is Before Sunset. Both people meet 9 years later. Celine did not show up after 6 months because her grandmother died. Jesse waited in Vienna in desperation. He then tried to forget her and wrote his story with Celine in a book, which become a hit. He is having a book tour in Paris when he meets Celine again. She lives there. Fate meets them there. Celine has worked as an environmentalist, and in a relationship with a photo journalist. Jesse has married with one kid. The conversation are focused on how unhappy Celine with all the relationships she has been through. And how Jesse also feels the same in his marriage. Boring and less passionate. Jesse is supposed to catch his flight to New York but the ending of the movie does not describe that. He is stuck in Celine’s apartment. And we never know what happens next J

What makes me into this movie so much is that the conversation that is made in the movie looks so natural. It is like they do not act to each other. They are really into it. Two strangers are falling in love after a great deep long talk. It is amazing how you flip your heart when you can share all your feelings freely to someone. You feel the connection. You feel the comfort. Eventhough, they do not seem to always agree to each other’s opinion. But they listen. This movie makes me think about how a relationship is built. A basic thing that is needed in a relationship is openness, an act to reveal the true of us. In every relationship, whether with friends, lovers, and even family, what we need is to be open to them, trying to share our opinions, our problems, and our stories. This will enrich the relationship itself. But this will not be perfect when both sides do not have the ability to listen. Each other must have a respect towards someone else’s opinion. They must be patient to listen to their stories, and their problems. I know this movie seems so perfect. How can you stand to talk to a stranger for hours anyway? May be you’ll get bored at one moment. That is not the point anyway. The point is you will know someone better and much better with a good conversation. We sometimes forget to speak our mind and to listen. We only rely upon ourselves. We don’t share much. And what happened? We get depressed. We become individualist. We lose our best friends. We lose our families. We lose the feeling of comfort. To every story in our life, there is one listener. One great conversation can make our day. We will be much happier person with fewer burdens, because we can share laughter, anger, and even sadness. This is what these movies teach me about. It is the essence of a good two-ways communication. Now I come up to a conclusion that you will love someone if you never get bored to talk to him/her, and so will he/she.

                                                          Before Sunrise

                                                              Before Sunset