Wow it's been two years already and I haven't posted anything. Thought I want to catch up and tell stories.
Well a lot had happened in two years. One month since my last post, I got to know a guy from an online dating. Well okay, it's Tinder...lol... I think I wrote about how frustrating Tinder was, yet I still used Tinder. And guess what, this actually worked. We started chatting in August 2018. He is from different city. We met first time in October, got engaged in January 2019, and got married in June 2019. Can you believe how fast it was? Sometimes, I still wondered and amazed how God designed such a perfect plan.
Why I chose him? No, I didn't choose him. God chose him for me. But the reason why finally I said yes was because all of the efforts he had done. When we dated he regularly rode 3 hour journey (100 km) motorbike just to see me. No man had ever done that before to me. And over all he is a caring loving person who makes me his priority. That's enough for me. Throughout my life existence, I have never found someone who sees me as their top priority. And he gives me all that....
After we got married, we were in a long distance marriage for about 8 months. He still worked in his city and I decided that I wanted to live in my own city. I can't leave my parents anymore. I can't imagine being away from them and leave both of them again. How lonely they must feel. Luckily he agreed and we both planned to live in my city together. He tried to find jobs here. But it was not a smooth one. A lot of job applications and interviews and no job had landed. Being in a small city, the job opportunity is very rare. Finally, we decided that he would move here first then he would find a job from here. Luckily, he was selected in a government training for welding technique. So here he was moving into my city in February 2020.
I feel that marriage is much better if the couple live together. To be in a long distance marriage was a challenge. We argued a lot and sometimes we had resentments toward each other because we only met once a week. Puffffhh thank God it was over. Now once we live together we rarely argue. We may get upset toward each other but it only takes few hours then we are okay. Lol. Married life.... Rite....
The other challenge was about starting a family. Well, I just thought that it was difficult for me to get pregnant because we didn't live together. I got really annoyed with people's comments saying that may be there is something wrong with me. And other people urge me to go to the doctor to check everything. Those words were such downside to us, especially me. I cried and got upset whenever people kept picking on me why you're not pregnant yet? It was so annoying.
Three months after my husband moved back here, I was having my period late. And turned out I am pregnant. Now it's in week 10. I was having USG yesterday and I could hear the heartbeat. It was amazing and I cried happily. Well nobody except my family and my office mates know about my pregnancy yet, because when I was 6 weeks pregnant, there was nothing to see in the USG. I was so panic and I thought of everything worst. What if I have blighted ovum? What if I miscarriage? That's the reason I keep my pregnancy a secret. And I also told my mom not to tell anyone else. But my worries are now gone. My baby is growing rapidly. I just can't believe I will be a Mom. Something I am wishing for since my twenties. I hope my pregnancy goes well. It's scary to think about the worst case scenario especially during pandemics like this. May Allah protect me and my baby....
I think that's all for now..... Hope everyone reading this staying safe and healthy too ❤️❤️❤️
